I'm done

I'm sorry guys.
Nobody is even interessted in this but I will still post about it.
I won't be blogging now in the future.
A lot of personal reasons.

Thank you if you have ever been reading my blog.

0104; some stuff

Hey, hey!

Here are some old things that I didn't post yet. I have not much to say about that because it's too long time ago. :D

I'm using the Ultimate Repair set from Gliss Kur. I'm really happy with it. My hair feels a lot healthier since i started using this. And my hair is really dead. I chose the hairmask instead the conditioner because I feel like my hair needs a lot of stuff. XD

I decided to buy more games for my PS2. D: So I bought Final Fantasy 12 and Devil May Cry 1. Both of them are quite fun but I can't play them atm. :c

Finally I bought the powder I wanted for some months. Mac's studio fix powder in NW15. It's a lot better for my skin than my Dita Von Teese powder.

And juhuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuu. I bouoght the cutest airmax ever. They are a bit too small but whatever. 8--) I'm really happy with them!

Random pictures of my new room. I guess I'll update more about it soon. But have a look at my cosmetic table (without my makeup).

Here is a photo of me and my sister Vivien at the wedding of my mother and her husband. It was really lovely to see my family again. Since we all are living in different cities it isn't that easy anymore.

I really do miss my family. I miss all the small things. But I believe that it is better this way.

Not much to read this time. I do want to post more. More about small things. And more about my thoughts.

I hope that my motivation is enough for that.

Thank you for visiting my blog!

Love, Sara ♥

0103; moving out & dir en grey's gig

Hello gays!

So again i didn't update for some weeks. But I can actually tell you why I'm taking so much time to post. I moved away from home! Yes yes that sounds scary, espeacially in my age!

Now I live in Bochum in a shared appartment. I'm quite happy here. Trainstaion andI'm really busstops are really near and the people here are pretty nice too (sometimes). Ofcourse I'm a sad that i left my family.. but I really think this was the right decision for a happy future. My family moved quite far away now and i can see them just once a month. I miss you, everybody there.

in the middle of moving ; in my old room

shortly after moving ; in my new room

I wanted to move already a long time ago. I don't really want to speak about the reasons but I just wasn't happy about anything anymore. So I searched for a good place to live. I wanted to stay near my boyfriend and my friends. In that case Bochum is the perfect location for me. Then I finally found a really good apappartment.. but since I'm underaged it's not that easy to just move where you want to. (fuck this shit)

I lost all my hope and was sure that I can't do anything ever. But somehow I was lucky and I was able to move to my chosen place!

I'm really feeling a lot better now. Sometimes I'm very sad and afraid that it was wrong to leave. But I guess that is a normal feeling. I'm still having a real hard time but after all I'm happy that I can start my own life from now on.

So wish me luck that I will get better and finally success in something!

 Here are again some random pictures of myself. :--D The right one was my outfit for Japanday 2013 where I went with my friend Tinka. It was pretty boring this year so I don't have to write or show you guys anything about it.

After all the stress I wanted to do something good for myself and so I went to DIR EN GREY's concert on 11/06/2013! It was the best concert I ever went to. (I didn't go to many...) Seriously, it was just amazing. Sadly I couldn't really enjoy it because other horrible things where going on at the same time. But after all it helped me to free myself (if that is understandable:--D). I'm sure that this was what I needed to become a little happier. Also it was lovely to meet old friends and also some new people! Thank you Nana and Santi for spending this day with me! 

my outfit for the gig

weird picture

amazing music - amazing band - amazing people

Here is the merch that I bought there. I'm so in love with that bag. I'm wearing it almost everyday since then. The tshirt is a bit weird but i still love it aswell!

why is there a heart on my genitals

the lovely bag ♥

Hopefully I will update very soon. I have more motivation and more time now so I will keep going.

Thank you for reading!

LOVE, SARA ♥

0102; forever lazy

OK NOW SRSLY >::::(

I really want to post more. But my laziness is always getting in my way. I wanted to post the following pictures already since months. And that's why I do that now. I don't have much to say about them... so I hope you still enjoy my photos. :D

me and my boyfriend ♥

somehow my legs are looking weird here

In the past months I played a lot. I'll show you some games here.

spyro 2 was my addiction when I was a little girl (ﾉ∇･､) so played it one more time

got Black Rock Shooter for PSP (　；∀；) still didn't play it till the end

started to play TERA but too lazy to use the PC that much atm

JUHUU! System Of A Down and DIR EN GREY tickets 

and fuck yeah! Got schoolgirl the novel by Osamu Dazai ;_; love it

Also got cute new thights and new heels. So many good things. More posts about my new gets will follow in the next posts.

Thank you for visiting my blog!

LOVE, SARA ♥

0101; my 17th birthday

a gift by phil ♥

So on the 1st May was my 17th birthday. In fact I don't want to talk a lot about it and just show you some pictures.

in the morning...

my vegan birthday cake ♥

lancome moistrurising creme

vera wang princess perfume and body lotion 

my birthday outfit

Since I don't really like birthdays it wasn't a really happy day for me. I don't want to think about it.

The only thing that I can say is that I'm really happy to have my family, friends and my boyfriend.

Thank you everybody for being there for me. ♥

LOVE, SARA ♥

0100; why do i even have this blog

Hey gays! ♥

Sorry, sorry, sorry again for not posting. I've been very busy during the last weeks/months. So I didn't really have neither the time nor the motivation to write anything about myself. 

Lately I've been pretty down and I'm not feeling very well. There are many important things about my future which are bothering me the whole time. A little time-out wouldn't be bad but it's quite impossible to leave the problems alone.

I can already tell you guys that I'll be moving out from home pretty soon. Nobody knows when it will happen but hopefully (very) soon. It could be this week or in 2 months.

On the other hand there is a lot stuff about school and job which is making me anxious. 

I have never been the person with lots of motivation or optimism but since 2013 I've lost almost all of these things. I don't really know where this is going and this insecurity is depressing me.

I don't know if this is too personal for a blog like this.. I just wanted to let you know.

But enough complaints! I want to show you a few things which I've done lately. :) As you can see in my pictures I wear pretty simple makeup lately. I don't really like seeing myself in this natural look. It doesn't really suit me but hopefully times will change and I will get new motivation to try and wear more makeup.

The following pictures will show you some things which I bought/got during the last weeks.

sony pastel pink headphones 

a new mobile phone - nexus 4 ♥

# valentines gift from my boyfriend # mac studio fix fluid nw10 # p2 sand style nailpolish # Lollipop Chainsaw from my boyfriend

Dita von Teese candlelight powder as an easter gift

backpack from ebay and louis vuitton bag from my mom

I really love all of these things. I wear my headphones everytime i go out. Nexus 4 is the best ever. Love my new makeup and powder, my new bags and ofcourse all the gift's I've got. Thank you so much! ♥

In the end are some more pictures of myself. There are quite many pictures i've taken... XD
Finally I dyed my hair pastel purple!♥ (It already faded away) juhuuuuuuuuuu

This time I wrote a lot about my life and I'm not really sure about doing this. I know that I asked about this in an other post already.. but do you think it's too personal to write personal themes on blogspot?

Thank you for reading my blog once again. I hope you enjoyed. ;_;

LOVE, SARA ♥

099; silver

hey gays, once again i didn't post a long long time. i don't even know anymore how to write in english. XD

this is a post which i wanted to make a long time ago already. it's about my try to get my hair silver. (it's so long ago that i don't even have this color anymore höhö)

this is how it looed in the end. it wasn't really what i wanted. i still want a darker silver but well i thought that this colour is pretty nice too.

so here is what i used:

 #l'oéal - silver shampoo - ~10€ # wella - color fresh silver ~10€

the silver shampoo was the first thing that i tried to get silver hair. i used this everytime i washed my hair and left it in for about 5 minutes. i'm really happy with the result. already after washing my hair with this once it got really grey. i bought it in any hairdresser shop but you get it in amazon as well.

color fresh silver is something like a hairdye (?). i don't really understand it but well it was worse than i thought. it made my hair light silver but i wanted a darker one.

i just didn't really find the right product yet.

in these pictures you can see how the color fresh stuff looked like on the hand and in the hair.

right: after               left: before

as you can see in the before-after is that it didn't really dye my hairline. :c

after all i'm really happy with the color and i wanna dye it silver soon again. 

i would recomment this stuff if you are trying to get a light silver but for a more intense color i would say just try something else. XD

i would like to try other products. it would be nice if you could recomment me some. :3

thank you for reading.

in love, sara