So again i didn't update for some weeks. But I can actually tell you why I'm taking so much time to post. I moved away from home! Yes yes that sounds scary, espeacially in my age!
Now I live in Bochum in a shared appartment. I'm quite happy here. Trainstaion andI'm really busstops are really near and the people here are pretty nice too (sometimes). Ofcourse I'm a sad that i left my family.. but I really think this was the right decision for a happy future. My family moved quite far away now and i can see them just once a month. I miss you, everybody there.
|in the middle of moving ; in my old room|
|shortly after moving ; in my new room|
I wanted to move already a long time ago. I don't really want to speak about the reasons but I just wasn't happy about anything anymore. So I searched for a good place to live. I wanted to stay near my boyfriend and my friends. In that case Bochum is the perfect location for me. Then I finally found a really good apappartment.. but since I'm underaged it's not that easy to just move where you want to. (fuck this shit)
I lost all my hope and was sure that I can't do anything ever. But somehow I was lucky and I was able to move to my chosen place!
I'm really feeling a lot better now. Sometimes I'm very sad and afraid that it was wrong to leave. But I guess that is a normal feeling. I'm still having a real hard time but after all I'm happy that I can start my own life from now on.
So wish me luck that I will get better and finally success in something!
Here are again some random pictures of myself. :--D The right one was my outfit for Japanday 2013 where I went with my friend Tinka. It was pretty boring this year so I don't have to write or show you guys anything about it.
After all the stress I wanted to do something good for myself and so I went to DIR EN GREY's concert on 11/06/2013! It was the best concert I ever went to. (I didn't go to many...) Seriously, it was just amazing. Sadly I couldn't really enjoy it because other horrible things where going on at the same time. But after all it helped me to free myself (if that is understandable:--D). I'm sure that this was what I needed to become a little happier. Also it was lovely to meet old friends and also some new people! Thank you Nana and Santi for spending this day with me!
|my outfit for the gig|
amazing music - amazing band - amazing people
Here is the merch that I bought there. I'm so in love with that bag. I'm wearing it almost everyday since then. The tshirt is a bit weird but i still love it aswell!
|why is there a heart on my genitals|
|the lovely bag ♥|
Hopefully I will update very soon. I have more motivation and more time now so I will keep going.
Thank you for reading!
LOVE, SARA ♥